Angry

For more than two weeks I’ve been switching between losing my shit and getting my shit together. Now I’m more balanced, as much as you can, living in Israel at the moment…

You get used to everything they say.

I guess another reason that I’m more balanced is that I’m Angry. A bit more focus being one of the first attributes of this Anger of mine. My mind was so fried from it all, it was hard putting two sentences together. Let alone posting something.

I’m angry at those who are not speaking up, angry with the deafening silence of too many. Especially those who post frequently about so many injustices in the world, but suddenly things get a bit more complicated when it’s about Jews and Israel.

I’m angry that apparently bombing a neighbor for 18 years should be tolerated when it’s Israel being bombed.

I’m angry with words such as Colonization, Genocide and Ethnic Cleansing used by the ignorant majority. Study it – be teachable.

I’m angry with headlines such as “the war between Israel and Hamas” as if ANYTHING between these two names can be compared.

I’m angry with organizations such as #Unicef and the likes, with 17 posts about children in Gaza and NONE about beheaded and orphaned and kidnapped Israeli babies.

I’m angry at so many so called journalist for not taking any responsibility to inform their public about something trivial as FACTS.

I’m angry if I think about the amount of money the Gaza strip has received in the last decades, completely disregarding their own citizen’s needs and future wellbeing.

I’m angry how the world just won’t see - won’t take their LITERAL words, manifests and sadly deeds for it, when they say they wanna wipe us of the map. (They being Iran, Hamas, Hezbollah, Islamic Jihad, etc)

I’m angry with world leaders asking for a ‘proportioned’ response to the Hamas atrocities of October 7 as if Israel seeks revenge and not SECURITY.

I’m angry, because some parents in Israel have to ask their kids, if they want to go to a funeral of a murdered friend or spent time with a friend who just buried his whole family.

I never really understood when I was smaller, why my parents and only grandmother (the rest of my family being murdered by the Nazis) went on about Israel and its importance for the Jewish people.

Before 7 October 2023 I sort of dreamed of an Israel where all religious holidays were taught and celebrated together. I want to live in a country were ‘Live and Let live’ was the only way.

I was naïve.

Many Jewish friends took of the mezuzah affixed to their outer doorpost in Europe.

I was raised with this; “They don’t need to know you’re Jewish”. Leftovers from ’40-’45. Leftovers from centuries of persecution throughout the world and throughout generations.

I understand the importance of Israel as a Jewish homeland now when I see too many posts of ignorant western people joining in Arabs’ chanting of ‘Free Palestine from the river to the sea’.

On October 7th we saw what ‘Free Palestine’ will look like.

Being silent was never an option.

Such as losing this war or any other war at any front in Israel is neither an option.

Make no mistake as to where I stand. I stand right here in Israel.

Make no mistake about this either; the fucked up government of Israel with their zero imagination for a new Middle East is not to blame for what went on in the horrific monster-minds of Hamas ‘freedom-fighters’.

As an aspiring Yogi I’m fully aware of ‘Ahimsa’; non-violence.

I will continue dreaming, praying and meditating for a peaceful Middle East and I believe I am part of that.

However, I will not forget that the Bhagavad Gita (an ancient text that incorporated many of the philosophical concepts that remain essential to the modern practice of yoga) was set in a battlefield. It is in a Battlefield where are minds have to become crystal clear. Where we can see our own inner struggle, our responses and reactions to it. Where we can see who our enemies and allies are. And it is in a battle field where Silence always benefits the aggressor.

Do not be silent.

There are many gifted people out there with informative honest reporting.

I do not want to waste my time with Social Media explaining what should be obvious. I prefer to invest my time with people I can feel and hear and see.

But if you feel you could use some more info:

#honestreporting

#blackandjewishunity

#noatishbi

#sambany

#yosephhaddad